There is that part of us that believes We will never die -- otherwise, How could we watch so much television, and there is the part that believes when we die, all life will come to an end. This is the part that storms within us dragging its robes across the marble floor. But what I like to believe is that the minute I die, the world will change into a map of the world which I will roll up into a tube and carry with me wherever I am going. It could be an antique map with pictures of sea serpents in the corners or a huge Mercator projection, but when I finally get where I am going (and I have a feeling it will take days), I will spread out the map on something flat, and there I will study the patterns of shorelines and boundaries, maybe reminisce about a country I once visited or a strait where a navel battle once took place. I also like to believe that there will be other beings there who will gather around this picture of earth so I can explain to them what it was like -- how the cold mountains rose above valleys, how this was called geography, how the people from this pale blue area crossed into the light green area to the south and killed whoever they found there and how this was known as history and as they listen, mild-eyed and silent, others will arrive to join the circle like ripples moving toward the center instead of away.